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Looking North West from NW Cornell Road near Upper McClay Park. Oh, those dots, snow flakes on 03-02-2009



Pizza Wars!



Can you deliver two of those pizza's? We are dining at the Dumpster cafe!

My life, a medley of moments.....

Z, Just when I think I might be getting as clue, my thoughts and feelings do a 180 degree turn and I am in another zone.



Finally, publishing my photos after attempting to change the links in my photo bucket album.

Here is a shot looking Southwest into the in the Forest Heights neighborhood which is part of my bus route, NW Hills.

I'm reflecting on every moment, did you know?

I've not been able to post for days, maybe weeks. I've lost track of the necessity to post. I've been working over 40 hours a week and the variety of the work has taken a toll on me.

My situation at home has changed. I've submitted my 30 day notice to quit my apartment and received a list of what is required by the property management company for me to get my deposit back in regards to cleaning my place. I will manage it, because I need the money and it is just cleaning. I'm really good at cleaning sometimes. I'll be really good at this, because it benefits me and I will see results for my actions.

I have been looking for a new place to live and met a man yesterday, from CA who is living up here in North Portland, leasing a house that he is renting out the bedrooms for much less than I am paying for this apartment. I'm hoping that he will find me to be the most likely candidate to rent to.

It is rather a leap of faith to quit ones residence without having a place to move to. I have to remember that with every closing of a door a new one unlocks. All I have to do is approach it and turn the knob, open it and walk in. Behold the wonders beyond the door!

I have been just surviving and I want to go beyond that, want to thrive as Kaiser Health suggests we do by becoming a member for just $1500.o0 a month or whatever amount I can't afford is. It's less through my union.

I'm on Jackson Browne's website and a medley of songs is playing. That's all I need sometimes to remind me of my past life, my ideals.

Well, it is not taking my html link again. Maybe it is because I can't put it in one line. I don't know, but if you want to listen to Jackson, just google him and you will hear what I am hearing.

The Reliability Factor

I am somewhat disappointed with my housing search. I suspect I expect others to be as reliable as myself. I mean I just called a person who contacted me about their room for rent to change my appointment, from this morning to this afternoon.

I spoke with her on Thursday. when I called a few minutes ago, she told me the rooms had been rented and she said she was sorry that she should have called me.

We develop habits. It is a practiced habit to keep in touch with people, although in my case I struggle with keeping in touch with those I left in California, I still do it.

I guess I just have higher standards about my word and am running into the lower standard people.

Even the place out in Scappose I called emailed the person to say I decided not to pursue living there and the one I saw at the beginning of the week, told that one right there I was not interested. She wanted to know why and struggled with accepting my statement of just some feelings.

I am sensitive and have been listening to my feelings as opposed to some of the other inputs we all get and I have been having good results with my interpretation of the those feelings.

I continue to believe that I will find a place to move to with my pets or if not, I will adapt. I will what I can to make this happen, within reason of course.

I've got some pictures coming and some errands to run. I will be back!

I am such a child at heart

Having my dog is helping to keep my inner child alive.

It is my understanding that a dog only gets to be the mental age of a 5 year old child. In that case, I continue to treat him with love and like a little kid. I invent words and use invented words repetitively since I am really quite prone this type of behaivor around my dog and cat too. I have a voice that is part child, part adult, part cartoon character.

I suspect if anyone heard me talking to my dog, well they might think lots of things. I don't care. I am a survivor of a lot of bad behaviors, mine and others and have not got to my old age of 59 going on 60 by letting others thoughts condemn me. People are allowed to have their opinions. Buster's and my time is short for the planet. Although, I will likely survive him, it will not be easy at first. I treat him like my small child simply because he is one to me and there is no reason to make him behave like a human. He is a dog and therefore behaves like a dog, but he loves me and I love him back. It makes me sad right now to know that his time is limited, that he will one day pass from this existance and that just brings my own mortality into focus.

I love my dog and cat but I think I love my dog more because he is almost always with me, my constant companion. He keeps me from taking the rest of the world to seriously.

On another note. Two small school buses from our yard had a collision today. Both going up a hill, the one in front stopped, the one behind for some reason didn't stop. It is totaled. The one is front is damaged, but will be repaired. I didn't hear about the passengers. Pictures will be coming soon, maybe as soon as tomorrow.

There was a beautiful sunset this evening. Right behind it was a small crescent moon and then some bright planet. I would have loved to get a photo, but was working still.

If meat is so good then why do we almost always supplement it with vegies?

Yeah, every main dish of meat is always something like roast beast with carrots, potatoes, onions, etc. or fish with broccoli and onions and mushrooms.

I am cooking up some mushrooms, tofu, onions, rice and broccoli. mmmm. The onion carmelizing smells delicious. I've got to get back and check on my spearmint tea!

Scappoose is out!

The place in Scappoose is out. To far for my old tired van with 265,000 miles on the odometer. Just that alone should be enough, but the person renting doesn't pick up the poop from her 5 dogs and they step in it and come in the house, ewwwh. Then she is worried about the tenant cleaning the toilet and that was an issue with her and the last tenant.

I did post another ad on craigs list, looking for a room and handy with tools that caught some ones eye. Hopefully, they don't flake like some of the others that have initially contacted me.

I am moving, being positive about it and shedding some of my items that I have collected over the years.

If I can accomplish this move, it will allow me to pay off my debts and save some funds to further accomplish my goals.